wow, I, too, would love to check out his chart, and feel sorry for him just slightly. Reading over his blog, I definitely can relate to his feelings, as I also found myself feeling much the same way at various points in my life. Especially in my teen years when I was single, but even after I was married.

As I approach middle age, I find that the feelings are still there, but not so much in my dealings with love, since I'm still married. It's moreso in my dealings with friends and acquaintances. I don't get random calls from people asking how I'm doing, nor do friends call me to ask me to do something with them, nor do I get personally invited to parties/events much. Even dealing with strangers, it feels as though there's some barrier there that causes people not to notice me as much, I get overlooked a lot. There are times I will sit and obsess over the questions for hours (probably a Gemini ascendant thing), why don't people like me/accept me/notice me/understand me/etc. I can just imagine how hellish it would have been, thinking that way up to the age of 48.

It's too bad the guy never got the boost of confidence that he so desperately needed. Myself, despite being married, I'd still often find myself over the years fretting about my looks and desirability and such, until I got into a band. The big dose of attention and confidence from that experience very much improved my thoughts about myself.

Especially without a chart, I cannot see how this relates to the 12th House tribe and I am considering deleting it.

On a hunch, I checked to see if he had any significant transneptunian natal aspects to
personal planets...especially Venus.
I only looked at the big ones which are the dwarf planets/Plutoids and dwarf planet/Plutoid candidates

These are energies so metaphysical that there can problems on the physical plane. In this case, serious psychological problems.

I only looked at the hard ptolemaic aspects with only 3 degree orb



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His Venus-Neptune in Scorpio trine Mars in Cancer sextile Pluto in Virgo doesn't look like problems with lovelife


dwarf planet/Plutoid, Makemake (named after Rapanui Creation/Fertility God) is in 4'06 Leo,and so that squares his Venus.
Venus square a Plutoid would indicate the love nature/relating being so metaphysical that there can be problems on the physical plane. In this case,serious psychological problems that manifested into murder and suicide.

according to Philip Sedgwick, negative keywords for Makemake:
Negative: Cunning and verbally manipulative. Double talk. Diversion of facts. Declaring false findings (laying an egg, so to speak). Taking flight to avoid consequence. Hiding as a coping skill. Reckless. Disregard for safety of the home. Self-serving.

His Venus oppose/conjunct the heliocentric Eris Nodes in 5'20 Taurus/Scorpio . This could indicate his love nature/relating is connected to collective controversy,bigotry,ideology,discord

negative Eris keywords according to Philip Sedgwick:
Negative - greed, workaholism, believe that you must take over for God, general sense of being forsaken, condemned or abandoned, lack of spiritual regard for life, superficial, status oriented.

dwarf planet/Plutoid candidate, Sedna (named after Inuit Sea Goddess) is in 27'41 Aries in opposition to his Mercury, and this could indicate the possibility of pathological thoughts,perception of being a victim and abused that can lead. With Mercury in opposition to a Plutoid candidate, the thinking/communiation is so metaphysical that there can be problems on the physical plane. In this case, serious psychological problems involving thought of being a victim,abused.

negative Sedna keywords according to Philip Sedgwick:
Negative - victimization, abuse, being deceived, history of betrayal, bitterness, “gold digging” attitude in relationship, transfers blame to others, numbs out, goes unconscious


also the Mercury-Sedna opposition is on the
heliocentric Chiron Node axis in 28'49 Libra/Aries, and so connected to collective wounds,pain


His Orcus (named after Roman God of Death) is in 9'46 Cancer, and that squares his Sun
this could indicate his ego/self expression in conflict with matters involving oaths,promises, and death matters. With Sun square a Plutoid candidate, his ego is so metaphysical that there can problems on the physical plane. In this case, serious psychological problems leading to death.

negative keywords for Orcus:
Negative: hypocritical, fault finding in the ways of others, blame assigning, ducks responsibility for word and actions, unable to keep promises


Other things of note:

His 2002 AW197 is in 5'28 Cancer,and so it conjuncts his Mars and square his Sun. With a Plutoid/dwarf planet candidate conjunct Mars and square Sun, the passions/assertion and ego/self expression are so metaphysically oriented that there can be problems on the physical plane. In this case, serious psychological problems.

negative keywords for 2002 AW197 according to Philip Sedgwick:
Negative: Greedy, manipulative via monetary means, financially controlling.

The positions can be checked here
www.true-node.com/pos/


I believe that Pluto's fellow transneptunians add more detail, fill in the blanks.
www.philipsedgwick.com/


He had strong Transneptunian energy. Philip Sedgwick says that transneptunian objects are intensified evolutionary objects. Therefore, this man had intensified evolutionary lessons/experiences which he couldn't handle.